Jeremiah 29:11New International Version (NIV)11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Just want to share what God has been teaching me lately ...
Funny how i have the chance to study again after 7 years of stopping to draw because I had to work and my parents didn't approve my passion for the arts at that time. Even so, when I was working, did my best, became the best employee in a dept, even got promoted as a boss to handle a group of people, transferred to another company got promoted and so on ... and still, i wasn't happy ... the pay was good but there was something in me that's itching that saying this is not what I'm built for, as i transferred to different companies with a certain position and authority ... still i continue to lose interest ... my performance sank and i ebbed away ...
There was something dying inside of me everyday, and that this kid in me wanted to come out, and explore. Then when i had the chance to study animation, this kid in me just exploded and ran around in glee without restraint. One thing i realized is that, I live in 2 worlds now. One is a supressed childhood passion that wanted to grow and bloom, another is the "leader" in me. It was hard finding the balance of the 2, one being so happy, jolly and carefree, to leap without looking back ... taking risks ... not minding anything .. the other ... serious, tactful, organized authoritative, patient, and firm (in a civil way ... im not rude or anything but you know when i mean business) part of myself. This time, this 4th quarter finally, I figured it out how to mix both worlds in me, but im sure it's gonna be easy.
Finding what you're good at and your passion is one of the best rewards in life. To do, what you were built for, if it was for music, arts, business, medicine whatever you are designed for, nothing beats doing the thing you love and you love what you are doing.
Another, is that finding the balance in yourself is always important. Not too carefree ... not too overly serious and demanding. In the end it's all about your values, how you treat people and where you place your security on. People will still disrespect you no matter how kind you are they will find ways to abuse you without them knowing it. I admit there are times i ran away from God because i coudn't understand why everything was happening to so badly, that even as i served him faithfully, this just hurts that bad. In the end, i realized, that it wasn't about me or the world, but it was his love for me inspite of me not being perfect.
How messed i was, how stupid i have become at times I'd let go and blame God for things i dont like in my life. We as a people would made a choice to ruin things up, God would always find ways to fix and clean the mess we made. Patiently and watchfully waiting for us to turn around and realize that all we need is Him. In this crazy world, the reason why we still call this a world is that His presence is still here, take that out, everyone of us will be each other's throats like an assassin.
My take ... go back to your first love ... what are you built for? what are you made for? Your skills, abilities are there for a reason, to make a difference. YOu are destined for greatness.
You lost your way, go back to God. After all, God has never left you nor forgotten you even if many times we have forgotten Him. You may say, I might fall again and do it again ... as many times as you fail, God is faithful and you are a work in progress God will not quit on you. He knew the disciples will fail many times, but He never quit that's why by His exmample, we shouldn't too. If we did, you never got up after you fell then you have already failed in life.
You are GOD's gift to the world, if you see things and everything in HIS eyes.
Romans 8:28New International Version (NIV)28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.